They Chose My Womb
I often wondered if it would ever happen for me… I often wondered if having life growing inside me would be something I would experience too. You know how those thoughts of doom and gloom enter your mind and try to convince you that it is merely something you will witness and never have the pleasure of experiencing first hand. And as the years rolled by, those thoughts grew and gained strength. I had often obsessed over it. Pretended not to be bothered, but secretly obsessing over it. Until it consumed me. When I lost my Father and my best friend, the obsession grew. Almost as though I were trying to replace these two lives I lost with another. But continuously, I was disappointed. And so the thoughts grew. The thoughts became stronger and more prominent. I didn’t know how to wait on God’s timing anymore, and frankly, I didn’t know if I wanted to. I became selfish and trusted Him less, although I still prayed for some kind of miracle. Which sounds we...