Temporary Sacrifice. Lifelong Gain.

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So, it is done. Today I handed in my resignation.
This has been a year filled with many losses for me. But it has also been a year of blessings. When I sit and think about the 11 months that have gone by, I do not know whether I should laugh or cry. One thing I do know though, is that I am thankful, oh so thankful.
When 2013 started, I claimed it. I told myself that this was going to be my year. Little did I know just how right I was. I decided that after 4 years of working, I was going to apply for my Masters in Psychology. This was something I had thought about very carefully, considering that Psychology Masters is a full time course. I wondered how I would cope if I were accepted and what I would do to my house if I had no income for a year (from the 2nd year, internship, I get paid). But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that it would all fall into place. I knew it would.
And so, when April came around, I sent in my application forms. I believed in myself and my abilities, but I tried not to think about it too much, because it was stressful. More than 2 months later though, I received an e-mail saying I made it to the second round of panel interviews. And when August came by, I found myself with a group of 60 other hopefuls, all fighting for one of 10 spots in the Masters Programme. We had already made it to this round, chosen from more than 300 students, but now the pressure was on. We had group activities and individual interviews, research assignments, you name it, we did it. They had to make sure they tested us. They had to make sure that we knew our worth. And we had to make sure that we knew our worth too. And boy, did I know I was worthy, and I made sure they knew it. It was not an easy task, but I made it through that week and was rewarded with a phone call at the end of it saying I was chosen to do my Masters in Clinical Psychology. It was a phone call that changed my life. A phone call that told me I was capable of so much, but I already knew that, I just needed to hear it again J
I had major personal losses too though. Ones I did not comprehend. But in time, the Lord has made it clear to me, that one door never closes without another opening. He will not take from you without giving you something in return. And so, although my year has been one with both ups and downs, I have learned that only I am responsible for my happiness. Only I am responsible for my success. Only I am responsible for the choices that I make. Only I am responsible for my reactions to setbacks.
I claimed this year. I said that 2013 would be mine. But I did not sit back and wait for things to happen. That happens all too much. I am guilty of it too. You sit and think you will get your rewards handed to you on a silver platter. But did you put in the effort? Did you try to make things happen? Life owes us nothing. We need to get up off our arses and work for whatever we want. We need to make sure that we put in the work. And if we don’t, then be prepared to sit on your arse and be envious of others all your life.
We will have setbacks. We will have moments where we feel we cannot go on. But we cannot allow those setbacks and moments to consume us.
We dream big, but those dreams will only become our lives once we wake up and chase them, catch them, make them our reality.
I handed in my resignation today. It was one of the scariest things I have ever had to do, because there are no guarantees. I am forced to step out of my comfort zone and take on challenges that I have never had to face. But I am willing to do it. I want this with everything in me. Every single fibre in my body wants this. Needs this. Craves this.
I need to make this temporary sacrifice in order to grow.
For the longest time, all I have ever wanted to be is a Clinical Psychologist, and soon, I will be one.
Today I handed in my resignation. I had to do it. Temporary sacrifice. Lifelong gain. I am happy. How many can say that?
Today, do what needs to be done to chase those dreams and make them your reality. I did!!

Take Care

Miss Stone

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